I’m at my dad’s, upstairs, in the back bedroom, on the bottom bunk, listening to music… and kind of having the time of my life, haha. I’ve been in such a good mood all day today.
I woke up late for homeroom, but Dewey didn’t realize I’m supposed to call Mr. Winschel when that happens so I got away with just emailing him. *mischievous grin* Then I went back to sleep for like two hours, until Dewey woke me up with a big Mountain Dew and a meatball sub from Sheetz. I had finished all my work for the week yesterday, so I spent a few hours listening to music and messing around on the computer aimlessly. I got my stuff together for my dad’s early, and then I got back on the computer. Then a wild burning smell appeared… oh my God if one more Skillet song comes on I’m going to throw my iPod… anyway, we smelled burning, and Dewey made a big deal of it and insisted on turning off and unplugging everything in the house. So I ended up playing Life with Mason, but Basil and Kali came home about five minutes after we started so we set up a new game and let Basil play with us. I married a chick this time. (; And I swear, Mason makes himself a girl every time we play now, and marries a girl, too. Interesting. But anyway, we had to stop halfway through the game to leave for Hanover.
We stopped at like four different places on the way, which was pretty irritating. Basil, Mason and I waited in the car, and I tried to distract myself from the heat and the boys’ chaos by playing Sky Burger, but it didn’t work very well. Mason had brought his DS and insisted on playing every song he’d learned in Ocarina of Time over and over again just to irritate Basil, and getting the attention he’d wanted, it escalated to him humming over top of it all as loud as he could. Basil ended up actually leaving the car (after yelling at Mason every two seconds for about five minutes straight) and leaving the singing five-year-old to get on MY nerves. So those stops brought my mood down for awhile, but once Basil left Dewey gave me a Monster drink and I was good again.
The first little while here at my dad’s was kind of boring and depressing… Elijah was napping, so all the lights were off, Etoo was playing outside so it was too quiet, and my dad, as he has been most of the time for the last few weeks now, was in a kind of grumpy mood. But then I played Mario Party with Etoo when he came in, and we went and spent some time at Grandma Bonnie’s, and Etoo and I took a walk to the park, and I had some soda (which is always a huge bonus, of course). We also ate some pickled eggs. (: Then we went grocery shopping to get stuff for dinner. When we got home I took a long shower while Daddy and Rachael watched a show, and then Rachael went to bed and Daddy started on dinner. We had awesome steak with equally awesome asparagus… Even Etoo loved it. Then everything got boring again, so I came up here and said I was going to bed.
But I don’t know… I just have a really positive outlook on things right now. I kind of feel like I can take on the world. That I can handle anything that gets thrown my way… And that any suffering I go through every now and then is worth all the good things I get to experience. It’s worth the awesome times I have with my family and the people I love and even by myself, it’s worth the beautiful things I get to see and hear and feel, it’s worth love, and music, and life. Life is good - people are bad. People have taken away a lot of my faith in a lot of things, they’ve taken away my happiness, but I’m done letting them do that. I’m only listening to the positive now. If someone only has negative shit to offer to me, well then, fuck them. They can be gone from my life. I’m only living once, and I’m going to get as much as I can from it. A minute of sadness is a minute wasted. (: